i spy with my lil eye..

i spy with my lil eye something...

green :) my own blog :D muahahahahha.

anyways. i'm going thru a phase which i like to call the bored at home phase. -.- what to do that's what a boring person do. HAHA well :) let's just say i'm a bit stuck at some point. thinking what am suppose to do next. yes i know. i'm suppose to have ambition. a dream. what's my dream career. all i can say is most people in the world don't get to have their dream career. what are they doing is something that they need to do in order for them to earn their living. right? not most of us are lucky to be able to work at something they love to do. most maybe.. they have no choice. it's their parents' dream career. the career makes big money. for the last 16 years.. maybe i was driven by this. i never knew what to be :/ until now. period. ahhhhhh maybe i should do whatever that is available. cos i dun have any career dream that is permanent XD

my life is messed up. well the career part. not all of it. cos i have a wonderful boyfriend. my family still cares for me. my best friends roy & jasmin are always there for me. what more can i ask for. owh yeah :) my own self assurance and confidence. i dun have that. i think i threw that away few years back. i can't stand with the too-many-smart-people around. i got intimidated blah blah. so i just live the fact that i'm below average. from then on. hahah i become so dumb. i mean real dumb. not the fake blonde kind of people. cos they are smart. i'm the dumb one XS

ahhhhhhhh :( so sad na.

maybe it's because of the boredom of staying at home. haih.

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