Don't jess with me, i'll choke you if i must

totally mean that. exaggerating? haha yup.

i don't like to make people down. neither i feel OKAY with me saying no.

i say no to stuffs which i think i'll get around with anyway. but simple things like asking for my help.. is esp hard to say no. sorry drian. can't help you today :) *hugs boo*

oh yes.i'm not the kind to say no. gullible yes? easily manipulated yes. cos maybe just maybe i wanted to be manipulated. or i'm pretty much stupid to have some sense knock in me :)

sorry to dissapoint you. i am that average. sadly

so what's been going on since i posted my last blog. even that one hasn't give you much details to require from this informative girl. i'm glad i'm at peace within the walls of my home drowning myself with enchanting love novels i acquire for myself during my "outs". HAHa

mental mental. kambing ehh. nothing long. just being brief. i almost thought i lost my mind talking about shit. hold my shit! x) *addressing to my PA* i'll soon post the pictures i have yeah :) as soon as i get around to have the time to get my ass up from this chair to my room to get my laptop and extract the pictures to a pendrive and resize it before uploading it to the picasa. there. that's a lot of work. if i were to that everytime. i might have lost 5kg in a week.

i am again just. Jesting.

Last sunday we went to panaga as one of my friends' bro threw a party for allister. i don't know why is theophilus didn't tell in his blog. oh he has an account of the events from his view. thank god nothing happened when they went out for a swim.anyways. just click him in my links what i almost said about the swim thing. he'll tell you himself. and oh yeah. it's allister's farewell party. he's gonna study abroad. i just can't seem to think without the changat brothers here around belait. it hasn't occur my mind these 2 boys will be leaving. really.

it was just few hours. tho with hesitations from my 2 aprentices (HAHA). i mean my sis and my cous. well we went home after just several hours. they took some pictures. i'll upload soon. promise. but the day before (saturday) again. me and the 2 girls were in bandar attending, stated at my previous post. the youth ablaze camp. we were there for a while. to watch and talk with some of the youth :) hope to see you guys soon enough if i'm in bandar again. and of course purchasing shirts for bros. as pressies! :) hehehe i like the graphics. one of the reason we went up and down the mall looking for the right size and colours. and yet meeting our taste & fashion. after all. guys don't wear smart tux every single day like they use to in the 1800s. so retro might just do the thing? right?

that reminds me :) to greet my bros.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO NOEL

&

HAPPY 11th BIRTHDAY TO JJ

che che love both of you. and you 2 know that well :)

i should post their picture here right? haha next post. when i find the right one. plus you all know how they look like ;) one is fat and the other tall and gangly looking. still they had the looks which at least makes girls adore them ;) trust me.esp the youngest. if i were to keep a watchful eye on either both of them. i'll keep mine on the youngest fat one. you don't know how he can even charm women what more girls who he will soon come to know :) i dn't want any silly little sluts having a go on my bro. and that's for sure ;) HAHA i WILL make sure of it.

eee i love you 2 to bits.

k enough about mushy mushy love over my rebellious brothers. HAHA my sister's bday is coming soon. on the 21st and so is alyssa on the 16th. :)

and twilight is coming. bringing you 2 to watch that will be your bday treat ;) dec 18th? i'm not sure when is the premier... but.. i do hope the day make availability for mmm at its utmost possibilities can.. sigh.

confirmation for cool :) it's this 7th december 08, morning mass. do attend.

we will appreciate your presence to celebrate with us.

and Deacon Arin's ordination the next day after.

then it's the caroling prac on the 10th. and the real carolling on the 12th. then

the day you're here do hold me close, tightly to you

hehehehe :D EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i can't believe that christmas is so ever near. my last christmas was :D.

then it's new years na. wow. so little time. it's already 2009 the next year. and i need to come back to senses soon. what i should be doing next year? any suggestions? HAHA :) no need. i don't really like to ponder on opinions where i'm concerned in people's eyes. i wanna be distracted with what i want in my Own eyes.

haih. i don't really mind blogging yet. i don't like to blog all this silly stuffs of my thoughts as it might just make people drive into confusion what am i trying to tell the world exactly. which i myself have no idea. so i'll just leave you with your thoughts as how exactly my thoughts work and you might think otherwise that i might not be truthful what i blog after all. so m i a charmeleon or the opposite? you judge? wanna be spiteful? be anonymous? 2 face? i dunnoe? :D

savour the truth

"let time tell us. don't fight it, accept it"