i believe in the quote saying:

"we learn as we grow"

:) and unfortunately i'm 19 and still learning lots :) lazy at times but still survives in any possible ordeals. not too bad. but not good either :) let's just say i made too much mistakes which some actually repeat (being unfortunate in certain accounts) uh huh.

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people are leaving. what can i say? that's life. in order to move forward :) maybe some are destined to be great. others are just the opposite:unfortunate. or just simply simple :) from what i've realised. things happened cos there might be something else will happen in the near future. my life is an example to manifest the possible beliefs about it :) really.

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I used to regret for being so lazy back in my younger years. i didn't do well so yeah. I'm grateful for what i have now. what makes me wonder.will it be the same like now if i was more of a brainy person. i would have gone somewhere outside brunei last year :) or i would have gotten some scholarships after o levels.but nope. none occur.

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I know people keep on mentioning that it is not too late. still young :) hehe but yeah. i'm concern with my best friend too :) misses you bff. he would one day leave too. maybe slow but still will be going. my other best friend too will be leaving soon. cos she really wants to study in one of the unis that she insist on going. well good choice seriously :) good luck sa interviews mo. bob will be leaving soon too. he got a scholarship from brunei shell tankers (bst).. the people whom i'm close with are going away :'( arvy is going to phils too. so make that 4 na. roy,jas,bob and arvy :'(.

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i guess that's life. i still do have friends yes. but the ones that are close to me will be away. it'll be hard not having them around. no one to bully by or at. no one to talk to or have fun hanging out. no one to gossip with face to face. with face expressions and hand gestures flying here and there. no more group outings like there was before :( it's sad lah when you think about it. i'll be missing all the times i had with them and wish to have them again when they are around again :)

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well let's just say i'm the type who are used to have people around her and never realise the fact that they will be going soon or not. during my younger years i always tagged along with sister/best friend/cousie/family phoebe debbie. it's kinda sad that she's not around. we've been together since babies. she has been my callmate since i was just 5 :) misses you bee :) i still remember when popo used to dress us up identical. it's just that you're taller and i'm so short :) it's been a while those times were in my mind. she left brunei 2 years ago to study in KK. not really keeping in touch but i did get to see her when i was in KK last year. still the same phoebe to me :) it's just that KK accent planted in her mind na :)

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eversince she's not here. i can't really take much fact about people who are leaving. what more if they are close to me :'( but "be strong at heart to remain firm" :) right. i'm gonna surely miss you guys. jas.. bob.. roy.. and babe ko. mmm :(

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babe. i know i'm being a baby :( but there are times it's hard for me to keep it. I've missed you so much when you're near. what more when it's far :(

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theos out