2nd day,saturday

That night on friday. I have no appetite. but I was persuaded to eat. feeling drowsy at the same time. I was able to bring the pain to sleep that night. When I woke up the next morning. I felt a little better. but confused where I was. But I realized then that I was being admitted to the hospital due to blood lost. anaemia. I felt very weak that morning.
Every certain period, my temperature,pulse and blood pressure will be monitored. I have an unstable temperature on my first night in the hospital. even my pulse is higher than normal. From what I learnt that when blood/hp is low the heart tend to pump harder in order to obtain more oxygen and to keep the blood circulation normal. It's possible for me to get a heart ailment with low blood/hp. well that's what the doctor told me. I was lucky enough that I was treated in time. What could have happened to me if I was still stubborn: telling myself I am healthy. I always have the I'm-healthy-no-worries attitude.
On Saturday morning, about 8 am in the morning, a group of gynae female doctors came to see every patient in the ward. haha. this one is funny. I was acting as the usual thinking-I-know-it-all [dunnoe anything about it actually:stupid] I got scolded by one doctor. the head gynaecologist =/ hahah *laughs* so much for my stupidity. okay! it made me shut up about being know-about-it. seriously i'm scared of that doctor from then on. =p
Blood test was taken again. It shos that I need another bag and my condition at that moment still hasn't improved. so later that morning, I was put on blood transfusion again. this time it hurts. I actually started to cry in pain and in depression knowing that there is something wrong with me. it affects some other patients *peace* . seriously how could you not break down knowing the fact that things will not be as it is before my condition is being known. I will always have to be check up. And for sure: stated in the documents I will have a history on blood loss. Imagine me at that moment thinking that things that wanted to do on my wishlist wouldn't be able to fulfill. I can never experience mountain climbing. my cousin ann wanted to bring me to Kinabalu climbing this december. And I don't think I'll get that chance anymore as I doubt my parents nor my close people would adviced me to do so. after all, what would happen to me if something goes wrong halfway towards the summit. there's no hospital nearby in the jungle. no more agressive exercising. can't do anything that would risk me by impulse. Even FOOD. I can't eat much foos that I like to eat. Fast Food. maintaining balance diet. =/.
so yeah. so many things run through my head. no more sour foods =(. hehe cold drinks are controlled. whoosh! It lasted for about 5 hours. the rate of the blood flow through my vein was put 100mph. was it mph? I donnoe. okay I wasn't that obsevant with the units. but I know the bag of blood was 350ml. I didn't noe who's the donater. wish I know. so I can thank for increasing my blood/hp. even if it's still low till now.
The doctors allowed food to be taken normally. liver and spinach is a must. I don't mind eating spinach but liver =/ it tasted very..uhh.. eww i guess. I actually can still taste and smell it. urgh.I have to eat it with some other sos in order for me to NOT taste it. sadly I still could.
I went to sleep after that second transfer. and I did really sleep. I actually don't want to be awaken for dinner. who has any appetite if they are depressed and in pain.But I have to take in food. it's a must. one of the nurses said that I'm small. *looks* am I? I eat well you know=). There's no problem for me and food. ask my close people. They know I have such a big appetite despite my size.Don't blame on me. It's just my size. I'm small since I'm young. period. But I'm grateful with the body I have now. It's totally better than when I was 14 and below. I just found out that my condition is hereditary. I'm really a big part of the Kadazan circles after all. since my great grandmother had the similar condition. haha even my mum ever told me that her grandmother is just like my size. thin and tall. *thumbs up*
aunt judy and uncle clement came to visit that day. I was glad enough to see them. If only phoebe came to see to. I did messaged her that day. she was shocked. coz it's the first time I'm being admitted to the hospital. i'm very healthy before what =D. hehe. I messaged best friend that day too. my babe noes about my condition for quite a long time. he was the one kept on persuading me to go for chekup. but I was stubborn enough not to listen to him. and look what had happened to me. I should have listen =) sorry to keep you worrying babe. but i'll be fine. coz I have to. =)
popo & kung kung visited too in the evening. my mum didn't mentioned about my admission to others. rach&hals noe about my condition the night before. They thought I went for a checkup only but didn't noe that it was that serious till I got admitted. They came that night. shocked to see me lying on the bed. sick. I'm glad enough that they came. I don't think I can get over the depression if my close people don't come and see me. Pij came to see also. since she lives somewhere near hospital. thanks Pij for keeping me company even if it's only for a while =) My friends kept on assuring that it's hormonal imbalance so I won't think too much negatives. which is still running around my head. fyi.
I was able to sleep that night.